Commitments

This evening i decided to list down all the commitments and activities that i'm involved in. It then dawned on me, quite suddenly, that i may be over-commited.

Involvement is one thing. Commitment takes involvement to a whole new level with different realities such as TIME and PRIORITY and MENTAL SPACE.

TIME
Commitment without tangible, quantifiable sacrefice loses its seriousness. And as such, time spent planning and preparing for a certain activity all come in the same bucket as the time spent at the event itself.

PRIORITY
A stuggle when it comes to me. Either i'm a passionate person that really wants to give my best in everything (which makes it difficult to choose which to put first), or i'm a 'yes man' that only wants to please people.

I get misunderstood a lot in this respect. I'd like to think myself as a person who wants to give my best in everything. And many commitments in my life are internally driven, not peer pressured.

But thinking further, it could be that attention-seeking imp in me that makes me want to 'be the man'.

But i shan't delve further, lest people assume a mere widening of perpective for character disclosure.

MENTAL SPACE
Commitment, i've learnt so far, takes up a lot of mental space. I've never heard of this term before, so i'll coin it as mine;) Mental space. This is the amount of resources the active part of the brain uses, whether concious or unconcious, in anticipation of an event.

And when it comes to commitment, the big guns take up a lot of space. Even though the event is happening two, or even three weeks from now, I would be flustered. It's hard to discribe the feeling. I guess every future event is like a small weight on the minds balance. If you have many small events, and you may think that the individual activities are "just a one off thing lah", the total weight of all the small activities put together could be much heavier than what you imagined at the point when the commitment was born.
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I was pretty downcast when i saw the penciled piece of paper. It felt like the initial swelling of activities that could very possibly result in a crash when school starts on 17th april.

That's a week away.

Then i saw an email from yue hua from the yahoo groups. so nice! she sent everybody a song. A1 - One in love. Lyrics or music didn't matter. The thought was priceless. It reminded me that out of all the commitments that i have, there are fruits that show themselves. Possibly fruits that will last=) tks yue hua! tks team 5=)

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After that, some exchange student guys from Hong Kong came to our house to stay over. Chatted with them for quite a long while. (my brother was tired from hosting them the whole day and spending the previous nite cleaning up our room.) Names are Samuel and N.G.

N.G. is quite the computer gamermaniac. Quite funny guy, and it probably made him seem the more eloquent of the two. He knows final fantasy! Samuel is quite a unique person, he jogs A LOT and does quite a lot of weights too. Those are his pasttimes. And his father makes him watch the news. Other than that, not much tv.

They're really very pleasant people. It is so refreshing to hear from fellow youths from other countries. It was also a very interesting experience because there was a slight language barrier. But the barrier only accentuated the similarities that we have with each other.

ok, it's late. G'nite all=)